Thursday, 11 February 2010
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Alexander McQueen, Gothic Anorexia and Chocolate Cake
Food and fashion do not go well together. In fact, the two are probably mortal enemies.
The dream: a skin-tight ensemble *still* spritely pops off your all-bone body. McQueen advert from Fall '09
This dichotomy was always most blatant when the network Bravo's two biggest shows: Project Runway and Top Chef, would be aired back to back.
Top Chef would always have an episode where the chefs would have to make a dish for a Hollywood actress whose diet was very limiting, and they'd react as though they were being water-boarded. It was as if not being allowed to make buffalo wings was making a mockery of their entire profession.
Meanwhile, over on Heidi Klum's turf, there would always be an episode where the designers had to design for "normal" people-size 4's and size 6's or, you know, people who ate buffalo wings-and the contestants would react as though they'd just been murdered and had arrived at the gates of hell. It was as if making clothing for the human equivalent of *not* a hanger was an insult to who they were as artists.
I always thought that if the two shows could come together-a group of wing lovers and a group whose diet was coffee and cigarettes-the entire world would probably implode.
So why then, am I writing a post about late fashion icon Alexander McQueen on a blog called IReallyLikeFood?
Because in attempted homage to him, I went searching for what his favorite food was, or cocktail, or anything-but according to the internet, the man simply did not eat. I shouldn't be surprised, as he was a key purveyor of Goth Fashion, and as a former goth, I know exactly what that entails.
To be a goth is almost religiously tied up with not eating and a desire for uninhibited skinnyness. Though I formally entered goth-hood somewhere between ages 11 and 12, I never formally quit-to this day my wardrobe is only black, dark grey, dark blue, or dark red, and my expression is almost always scorned. I joined the 'hood instantly upon gaining pubescent weight, and my desire to be so skinny you practically couldn't even see me has never since been fully quelled. I've so internalized the ritual of Gothic Anorexia that to this day, I must remind myself to eat, as well as reminding myself not to feel proud satisfaction when I realize I've skipped a meal.
I never formally entered the world of Ana, or Gothic Ana, but the ideals of both are inherently intertwined into what it is to be a goth, or to be an angsty, misguided pre-teen in our Fast Food Nation. To be angry was to be skinny, to rebel was to revel in starvation.
Alexander McQueen's art, in many ways, embodied exactly what young, righteous suburban teenagers have been rebelling against for two decades: lusciousness, corporate overabundance, just generally having a lot-having too much-and letting our possessions own us, and our bodies. Not eating and draping oneself in black can be viewed as the self-involved teenager's (or any well-off American's) attempt at spiritual soul-cleansing-at least that's what it was for me, in my youth.
But I'm 23 now, and looking back on McQueen's work throughout the years, I'm finding that the best way to pay homage to the legend whose art keenly represented such an influential time of my life (my time as a Gothic food-hater) is by concluding my own edible connections with his fashions.
So, in honor of my favorite purveyor of Gothism, Alexander McQueen, I present the the radical notion of being Goth and Still Eating with this recipe for Gothic Strawberry Shortcake:
Chocolate Sponge:
3 eggs
75gms powdered sugar
1 tbsp cornflour
2 tbsp cocoa
75 gms minus 3 tbsps flour
1 tsp baking powder
Pinch of salt1 tsp vanilla extract
Method :-
Line & grease a 8" spring form tin.
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Sift the cornflour + flour + cocoa + baking powder + salt 3 times. Keep aside.
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Preheat the oven to 180 degrees C.
- Beat the eggs & sugar well till it holds thick ribbons; about 10 minutes.
- Beat in the vanilla essence.
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Gently fold in the flour mix, a tbsp at a time, in figure 8 hand movements so that the beaten air doesn't escape.
- Turn into the prepared tin & bake for 25-30 minutes/ until done.
- Remove from tin after 5 minutes, take off the lining & cool completely on rack.
1 tsp Strawberry essence
Strawberry Sponge:
3 eggs
75gms powdered sugar
1 tbsp cornflour
2 tbsp cocoa
75 gms minus 1 tbsps flour
1 tsp baking powder
Pinch of salt
Method : See to above.Filling :400ml cream1 tsp strawberry essence (optional)
2-3 tbsp powdered sugar200gms/ chopped strawberries; reserve 3-4 for decoration
Method:-
Whip cream, essence & sugar till it holds peaks.
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Reserve 1-2 tbsp cream in a baggie for the spiral/ web on top.
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Fold in the strawberries.
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Don't make this too much in advance, since strawberries macerate with sugar, & might make the cream runny.
Ganache:200gms dark chocolate200ml cream
Method :-
Put the chocolate & cream in a pan. Keep on low heat, stirring constantly, till the chocolate melts. Remove & stir vigorously with a spoon.
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If you want to pipe decorations on top, pass about 1/4 cup through a sieve & reserve separately. I've found that unless you sieve the ganache, its not easy to pipe it through an icing set. Its fine for spreading though.
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Set aside to cool. It will thicken as it cools & get a spreadable consistency.
Finishing it off:
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Cut each sponge into 2, so there are a total of 4 layers.
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Sandwich them with the strawberry cream, using 1/3 each time.

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Spread the ganache over the top & sides of cake. Use sprinkles on the sides if desired.
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For the marbling, see pictures. Draw a spiral, with the cream in the baggie reserved from the filling, beginning from the centre outwards.

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Then drag a wooden pick from the centre outwards, at a 60 degree angle, to equal points on the edge.
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Do the same in the opposite direction (ie outwards to the centre) between the earlier lines. This will create a webbed pattern.

- Pipe a ganache edging if you like. Then finish off with sliced strawberries & flaked chocolate etc. Chill till required.
- Note: Serves about 15-18
R.I.P
Have you ever been a goth/known a goth who struggled with an eating disorder? Would you bake this cake?
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Comments (34)
RIP mcqueen...
His everything was amazing, every piece so intricately put together.
I really like this post though, the connection of food and his "statements"
never been a gothic ana. I like that cake. chocolate is my favorite
the black and red houndstooth dress with umbrella hat is cute.
nice post. even nicer cake.
I've been told my style is Goth. I like to dress in black, do dark make up, wear black lipsick. But honestly, I don't know what Goth really is, so I don't consider myself Goth. I do have an eating disorder, but it has nothing to do with being Gothic.
The cake looks BEAUTIFUL! I would bake that cake. I probably won't eat much of it, hahaha, but I would definitely bake it. I should save this recipe and attempt to bake it some time. I like baking. I bake tons of cookies and have dabbled with muffins and cupcakes. But for some reason, cakes (even cupcakes) intimidate me.
Mmm... love this. RIP Alexander McQueen
really nice post. nice connection. I don't know what goth is, but I wear an awful lot of black, dark colors and dark makeup. as far as eating disorders go, well, I have both anorexic and bulimic tendancies.maybe, in a way, you could see both as rebellion and somehow playing into each other.
I'm Goth but I don't dress goth (because I'm forced not to)
i have an ed
but I'll definetly try baking this cake! (not sure with the eating part ha)
@JupitersDays@xanga - @suet_sze@xanga - a lot of people i know who don't eat cook/bake really well all the time! can you give me some insight as to why non-eaters love being around food? when i didn't eat i never cooked, i still never cook but last night i gourded myself with strawberry shortcake from the cheesecake factory...in the name of mcqueen, of course
thanks everyone for the comments!!
I might try the cake, if I had a large enough block of time to make it. As you might imagine, I love chocolate.
Of course, the name started me thinking of a Certain Doll dressed up in Goth style.
What the fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck
THE CAKE LOOKS AMAZING..
MCQUEEN IS DEAD.
gothic ana.....i've never heard of that one before,but sounds amazing.....
the cake looks so awsomely artistic its like,how can you eat it? y'know....besides the calories...lol xD
I hate cake...but that particular cake is beautiful.
I've been seen as gothic, although I'm not. And a lot of the goths I know are all normal sized and eat. Hell, there are a couple of them that I know that are overweight. And I'm a bit overweight myself. Not by much, but enough for it to count. And people at school are constantly calling me gothic. But it's only because I have an extreme hatred for the color pink and anything bright and girly, and an extreme love for the color black and anything dark and morbid. But I'm not gothic. Or at least I don't feel like I am. If anyone would care to help me with this delema, please comment back and I will list all qualities that make people call me gothic and I'll see what you think. As for the cake, THAT'S TOTALLY FUCKING BAD ASS, I'M SAVING THIS PAGE AND MAKING MY MOM GET THE STUF FOR ME TO MAKE THAT!
@missneeraja@tripcrazed - I really loved this post because you wrote about the connections between anorexia and gothic culture... it was insightful and educated. I guess what I'm saying is I'm just happy to read something on Xanga that doesn't offhandedly trivialize and patronize eating disorders as something teenage girls "just do" to lose a few pounds.
I've had an eating disorder for six years, and while I have never been full out "goth" I would say that for a while my persona and demeanor was very "gothic" ... My entire closet, like yours, his almost entirely black, gray, and white. Your sentence "To be angry was to be skinny, to rebel was to revel in starvation" was pretty much my high school years.
A big thing for me is the excess- like you noted. Even with things other than food, I find myself shunning anything that is too grandiose- anything that I don't need...
And as for your question about why non-eaters love being around food- I'm totally guilty of that too. I'm obsessed with Food Network, love reading books about nutrition, and Foodgawker is one of my bookmarked tabs. I just think it has to do with the fact that when you deny yourself something so essential and natural as food, you're bound to think about it. I think how our brain deals with hunger and appetite is our closest similarity to other animals- so when it's denied food it focuses on it... to remind us we need to find some and eat. ... But we don't.
...Sorry for rambling! Ha. I've obviously had a lot of time to think about all this... plus, I'm on a coffee high. Hope you have a good night and best wishes!
At one point in my life I did dress goth. I swore on my life I
would never stop and that I would die with my heart bleeding in black
velvet, then I grew up. I also used to have an eating disorder that
lasted until about 2 years ago, but they were unrelated things.
@missneeraja@tripcrazed - I can't speak for everyone who has an eating disorder but when I had had an eating disorder I loved to cook and I loved to feed people. There were a million reasons why I loved being around food. One of them is simple. It showed how much "control" I had. I could make fabulous dishes and not eat a bite. I liked to make people happy. I liked to give people things that I couldn't have or didn't deserve. It made me feel better than them. It meant I was winning b/c they ate more calories than I ate. It was complicated and there is no simple answer. Those were just the main ones.
Oh yea, I would bake and eat the cake.
he died? R.I.P.
@missneeraja@tripcrazed - I love food. I've always loved food. I don't eat it because I'm afraid of gaining weight. I'm afraid of getting fatter. I've had weight/body image issues since I was a kid.
My love for cooking/baking doesn't stem from my eating disorder. I love baking and cooking because I like taking random things, putting them together, and getting something wonderful in the end. I like making something from what seems like nothing. Also, I like putting smiles on others faces. What better way to make someone smile than to make something for him/her? And isn't it even better when that something is something yummy made from the heart?
@XxXDarknessismyonlyescapeXxX@xanga - hahahhaa. Your description of yourself sounds just like me! Well, not so much now. Pink and other girly associated things have grown on me a little. But I still love black, anything dark, and anything morbid. Also, I don't, and never have, considered myself goth in any way. People also used to define me as that as well. It got really annoying. I had, and still have, no idea what it means to be goth. It got so annoying that I started to disdain the term goth and got offended any time someone would describe me as such. I'm not so touchy about it any more, but I still don't like being called something I don't think I am.
i've sort of always been goth, but i would never admit it... for a while i even wore the clothes, then i grew up and decided i looked ridiculous... i still wear a lot of black and listen to a lot of the music and do other things associated with that kind of lifestyle. but i'll probably never be as into as i was. my tastes in clothing have changed. and i always ate. i never felt that desire to be stick thin. then again, i have big boobs that don't go away no matter how little i eat. i'll never be stick thin with these damn things, and i've known that for a while now.
great article your writing is great
I absolutely love the comments about the Bravo shows. I LOVE Profject Runway AND Top Cehf, and you are completely right about the contestants being offended when faced with the opposite demographic. So true.
However, I had to stop reading when you began a short detail of what you thought goth was. My smiling and nodding was replaced with a sad disappointment. Not because you "were goth," no, that's not it at all.... but rather what you seemed to think it meant.
goth and anorexia do not always go hand in hand. in fact, the two rarely go together.
EMO and anorexia, however...that's a different story. you were probably under the category of emo if that's how you feel about it.
This is one of the first blogs that educated me on a culture I was not familiar with. Thank you.